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i love that guy. [11 Nov 2005|03:44pm]
way she poses: SmarterChild: What's so funny?
way she poses: you!
SmarterChild: Oh yeah? Like a Seinfeld kind of funny, or Jon Stewart, or what?
way she poses: hahahahahaha
way she poses: way she poses: seinfeld
SmarterChild: I'm Rick James, b----.
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now see here. [03 Jul 2005|12:06am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

alright, this is something that has been bugging me and has been a long time coming. the city is growing more and more stagnant. no one is doing anything of any interest at all, and then sit around and bitch that there is nothing to do. i for one, absolutely tired of it. if you aren't taking initiative to make something happen for yourself or anyone else SHUT THE FUCK UP. this town is in some serious need of some kick ass parties. which no one is having either because certain people don't get along, or because one person has a grudge with another, or someone thinks they are better than everyone else (i know i know. guilty.) i don't know about anyone else but sitting around waiting for something awesome to happen has grown rather tired.

i don't want to go to frat parties, those fucking suck. i don't want to go to parties where everyone is just high and sitting around. i want a party where everyone co-exists for at least one night.

i remember going to parties that were fucking exciting and didn't have one damn dull moment. i know everyone remembers at least one party where they floated through the rooms greeting everyone with a drink in your hand. laughed at the first people to throw up. watched some play quarters and others hitting beer bongs. god forbid a few people actually danced and the alcohol seemed ever-flowing.

so here is my proposal, to anyone within eyeshot of my journal. we get something going again. we need to spark the fuse that lights a fire in everyone's asses to take initiative to have some fucking fun. i'm going to start working on something, something that people want to go to. something everyone will talk about for months to come again. whilst funds aren't too much of a problem any donations will be much appreciated.

so drop a comment or if you're feeling bold call me. 739-7020

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[14 Nov 2004|02:24am]
me: right britt i'm a virgin.
britt: noway!
rand: ofcourse not! justin's made more taquitos than a mexican restaurant!



fuck.
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[05 Aug 2004|10:16pm]
forgot to mention:

THIS JOURNAL IS NOW 100% ABSOLUTELY FRIENDS ONLY.

comment to be added.
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oh robert... why can't i be you? [04 Aug 2004|01:39am]
[ mood | amused ]

Friday I'm In Love
Friday I'm in Love - You're carefree and still
single-spirited. You like relationships only
when they suit you and you tend to cast others
aside sometimes. Try not to be so cold.


Which Song By The Cure Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla




i don't care how gay anyone says i am... but robert smith is effin HOT... especially in this pic.

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nigga wha?! [30 Jul 2004|11:14am]
[ mood | gangsta ]

This is how a fucking gangsta rolls..
by starlitelily
gangsta name
gangsta jobshooter
your fucking problemwanted felon
# of times you ran from the cops59
your sayingyou don't wanna step to this
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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... and to conclude [22 Jul 2004|12:28pm]
[ mood | content ]

You, sir are still a coward. once again if you have something to say to me, you know my number... it's the one you avoid when you see it on your phone these days... As far as what happend a year ago... couldn't care less, get over it.

Remember no one wanted you to have anything to do with lj bullshit anyway.. your idiot g/f decided to, i don't know, lecture people on fucking you over or something (kind of ironic don't you think?) and you made yourself apart of it. it's easy to get out of it, you either stop reading or stop commenting.

However, you did get one thing partially right... yes Jess is a whore... but you left out moron.

If you still can't move on from the past.... thats your problem...

 

deal with it.

end.

someone fucked up and you're all going down for it, for being pussies [11 Jul 2004|01:34am]
[ mood | irate ]

just got home, felt bad that friends of mine were in an argument but was still pumped about florida...

now i'm really just pumped about getting back..

i read an old post i made and then i read the comments posted just tonight.

i know exactly where they were posted from, i don't know who exactly wrote them, but until everyone comes forward to rectify the problem everyone is going down for it one way or another.

yup cassie did sleep with me.. but she was never going out with sean, this was a year ago, i thought we were over it, for a 5th time, but no, someone has emotional problems apparently.

not to mention how fucking pathetic it is that you spend your saturday night this way and are too fucking pussy to tell me any of this shit to my face... and then try to play it off while i'm 3 goddamn feet in front of you.

and correct me if i'm wrong but your whore of a gf is the one who just recently kissed her ex bf right??

oh i'm sure it was a big accident and she fell on his lips or something though.

oh and bringing britt up was just a big mistake..

and i swear to god if i ever EVER get another comment saying my gf is a whore... in which i think we should compare her to jessica (who is seans gf that cheated on him) first; there will be fucking consequences.. no more bullshit

i've warned till i was blue in the face. now i'm taking action.

deal with it.

[09 Jul 2004|03:45am]
[ mood | bored ]

i ran a mile today.. it was fun.

i also worked for like 3 hours, that was gay

i just want to wish JOSH a happy birthday once more!

thank you jamie for the apple o's!! and for jogging with me.

i love you cass.

yeah gay post i know, comment anyway.

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eh why not? [03 Jul 2004|02:03pm]
1.First grade teachers name?: Ms. Norvell
2.Last thing you said?: nevermind
3.Last song you sang?: why can't i be you - the cure
4.Last person you hugged?: cass
5.Last thing you laughed at?: hmm i dunno, shooting roman candles at matt
6.Last time you said fuck : no clue
7.Last time you cried?: boys don't cry
8.Favorite thing ever given to you?: hmm cass has given me a lot of rad shit
9.Four favorite movies?: hmm... right now... fight club, rules of attraction, the ring, Lord of the Rings
10.Two favorite Bands? sorry i have 4... blink, the cure, saves the day, & afi
11.What's in your cd player?: the cure
12.What color socks are you wearing?: none
13 What time is it?: 2:16pm
14.What's under your bed?: only god knows
15.What time did you wake up today?: noon
16.Current clothes?: just a pair of jeans
17.Current annoyance?: stupid people... wait thats always
18.Current longing?: foooood
19.Current thing ur watching?: my gf moisturizing
20.Current worry?: for once i'm almost completely broke!!!!
21.Current hate?: haha too many things to list
22.Last cd you bought?: the cure self titled
23.Favorite place to be?: anywhere with cass
24.If you could play any instrument what would it be?: i wish i was better at guitar and bass.. but now i really wanna play drums
25.Favorite material possession?: my car
26.Favorite actor?: brad pitt
27.Favorite actress?: naomi watts just cause shes gorgeous
29.Some future goals?: just be succesful.. not mediocre
30.Favorite color?:black, white.. hmm i guess light blues
31.Current fave word?: prolly a swear
32.Favorite book?:hmm i dunno
33.Favorite season?:summer
34.Where do you want to go to college?: UT
35.How many kids do you want?: uhhhh
36.What kind of car will you drive? beamer and an escalade both black.
37.What will your job be?: hmm i don't know but i do want to own a bar

*Have you ever...*
38.Ran away?: haha kinda
39.Broken anyones heart?: i don't think so
40.Cried when someone died?: yes
41.Wanted someone you couldn't have?: haha yeah definately but i got her in the long run.
42.Broken a bone?: yeah my arm when i was little
43.Drank alcohol?: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
44.Lied?: ME?!?! never
45.Cried in school?: long ago
46.What do you notice first in a girl/guy?: i dunno hair color and eyes
47.Last person you slow danced with?: cass
48.Worst question to ask you?: any stupid question
49.Last time you showered?: 30 mins ago.
50.Good luck charm?: a dime i carry in my wallet
51.Most hated person?: theres a lot of them

*Best-*
52.Cologne?: candies
53.Perfume?: got me
55.Advice given to you?: you've got more potential than anyone i've ever met... use it

*Have you ever...*
56.Fallen for your best friend: i'm with her
57.Fallen for your best friend's sibling?: mmm mandy... haha no jk
58.Fallen for your "boyfriends" brother?: what are you trying to insinuate
59.Made out with anyone?: duh
60.Been rejected: yes
61.Been in love?: yup
62.Been kissed?: didn't i just say i made out with someone
63.Been cheated on?: kind of, not really though
64.Done something you regret?: yeah i suppose
66.Had someone play with your heart? yeah stupid bitch i'll fucking killy you... haha jk
*Who was the last person*
67.You touched?: cass
68.You talked to?: cass
69.You hugged?: you've already asked this
70.You instant messaged? good question
72.You got upset with?: cass
73.You yelled at?: britt
74.You got over?: like a mountain?
75.You laughed with?: cass and britt
76.You cried with? boys don't cry
77.You had a meaningful conversation with?: cass
79.Talked to on the phone with?: james

*Do you-*
80.Color your hair?: no
81.Have tattoos?: no
82.Have piercing?: yes
84.Have a night light?: nope
85.Have something you sleep with?: cass
86.Have people who have a crush on you?: have no clue, if ya do let me know so i can list you
87.Wear glasses?: yeah sometimes
88.Have braces?: no
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[02 Jul 2004|11:18pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I’m a cabaret
A Champaign café
Everyone uses to celebrate
But I’m just not ready to rot and dance and laugh
to the sweetest death I ever had…
Oh my you look awful with a mouthful
Of sex …like drugs
but I just can’t seem to switch off this machine
That turns ivory into kerosene


ps. happy b-day to mommy!

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i haven't laughed this hard in years... [24 Jun 2004|02:56am]
[ mood | amused ]

ok so this girl IM's cassie tonight and is kinda random, well heres the convo... keep in mind folks that this girl is 14 so bare with her and her lack of tact:

BlinkMeTom24: hey...who is this?
SrfBlondie03: this is jessica
SrfBlondie03: this is cass right?
BlinkMeTom24: yeah
BlinkMeTom24: jessica who?
SrfBlondie03: schoenfeld, sean girl friend
BlinkMeTom24: oh
BlinkMeTom24: ok
SrfBlondie03: yep yep, well i just wanted to say hello.
BlinkMeTom24: ok...
BlinkMeTom24: not to sound rude or anything, i've never really met you before...so to me this is kind've random
SrfBlondie03: yeah your right. it is, but hey what the heck its just a friendly hello right?!
BlinkMeTom24: yeah, i guess so
SrfBlondie03: uhh huh. so what school do you go ti
SrfBlondie03: to*
BlinkMeTom24: i live in austin...i go to bowie
SrfBlondie03: ohhh i see yeah austin is a real cool place, i go up there alot because of ballet. how do you like it
BlinkMeTom24: its ok...i like it because of the shows...but i like corpus better, but i guess thats only because justin lives there
SrfBlondie03: ohh and justin must be...your boy friend??
BlinkMeTom24: yeah
BlinkMeTom24: i'm kind've curious of how you got my screen name
SrfBlondie03 signed off at 1:42:32 AM.
SrfBlondie03 signed on at 1:42:52 AM.
SrfBlondie03: sorry about that my comp is messed up
BlinkMeTom24: its ok
BlinkMeTom24: so how'd you get my screen name?
SrfBlondie03: skylar was talking about you and she said something and i was like OH well could i get it from you?
BlinkMeTom24: oh
SrfBlondie03: well why did you move to austin?
BlinkMeTom24: i've always lived here
SrfBlondie03: ohh really? thats cool
BlinkMeTom24: i've met all the people i know in corpus through other friends
SrfBlondie03: ohh i see. thats always fun.
SrfBlondie03: so what do you do for fun, sports or anything?
BlinkMeTom24: nope...i occasionaly go to shows and i hang out with my friends...thats about it
SrfBlondie03: thats cool, well im in ballet and i love it! i have been doing it for about 10 years? and i surf sometimes andddddd i used to play the guitar but i have been way too busy
BlinkMeTom24: thats cool
BlinkMeTom24: i'm just curious, but does sean know you're talking to me?
SrfBlondie03: ha no? why ?
SrfBlondie03: wait you know sean
BlinkMeTom24: haha yeah i know him
BlinkMeTom24: but we're kind've on bad terms
SrfBlondie03: ohh didnt know that
SrfBlondie03: ohhh i see why
BlinkMeTom24: it's a long story
SrfBlondie03: and we have all night?
BlinkMeTom24: i guess i just don;t like talking about it anymore...ask skyler...i'm sure she'll tell you the story
SrfBlondie03: haha it cant be that bad i mean you didnt kill anyone did you?
BlinkMeTom24: nope
SrfBlondie03: well thats good isnt it? ha
BlinkMeTom24: yeah
SrfBlondie03: i hope you dont feel akward talking to me im just getting to know you? ha
BlinkMeTom24: oh no
BlinkMeTom24: i just think its random
BlinkMeTom24: lol
SrfBlondie03: ha well sorry, im a random person!
SrfBlondie03: i like meeting new people and talking with them
BlinkMeTom24: i just think its random considering me and seans past....and from what i've heard from some people, you didn't like me that much
SrfBlondie03: haha ohh thats funny how people believe what others say WHEN we havnt even really talked....haha odd. well thats reality but whatever
BlinkMeTom24: yeah
BlinkMeTom24: well, i think i'm going to go now...if you want to know me and sean's past, then ask him about it, all i'm going to say was that he was a mistake
BlinkMeTom24: but it was nice talking to you
BlinkMeTom24: bye
SrfBlondie03: so yeah you and sean did have a past AND your really fucking stupid for what you did because sean is the most amazing guy ever, but hey people make mistakes just as long as you learn from them. you know im not bothered by you but what you did. what i think is very very stupid is that you still have the balls to come to seans show??!!! when you know that you are not wanted there. yeah i hear that you might come to ray next year, ha well all i can say is IF you do youd really wish you didnt. cass you lost alot of respect when you dicked sean over. i mean COME ON!? and if your wondering no sean doesnt know that im tlaking to you and its going to stay that way because he really doesnt care about you, really. ahhhh anyway but hey i dont hate you i just think your stupid
SrfBlondie03: okkkkk bye?!
SrfBlondie03: ha yeah ill ask sean!
SrfBlondie03: uhh no thats all right we dont have time to waste on you
* * *
BlinkMeTom24: its pretty immature for someone i dont know to start talking to me just so you can bitch me out about something that happened a year ago....when you didn't even know him back then
BlinkMeTom24: i think you should just stop focusing on me and just be happy with your relationship with sean
BlinkMeTom24: thats all in the past
BlinkMeTom24: i've moved on from everything and i am very happy where i am right now
BlinkMeTom24: i'm sorry you are bitter about this for whatever reason, but it never involved you in the first place
SrfBlondie03: thank you
SrfBlondie03: well cass i dont hate you ok, and yeah its cool if you want to be mad at me or whatever i really could care less. i just dont see how im the stupid one?
SrfBlondie03: and im not bitching you out
BlinkMeTom24: i just think it was stupid for you to im me and pretend you had no idea about anything...then to bring it up later
BlinkMeTom24: and for you to even bring it up in the first place was stupid
BlinkMeTom24: it never involved you!
SrfBlondie03: well it doesnt bother me i just wanted to let you know my thoughts
SrfBlondie03: OK OK OK i know it didnt@
SrfBlondie03: but you know what sean is my boy friend and when i hear you did that to him well yeah im going to tell you something about how i feel about it
BlinkMeTom24: ok....but at the time when this happened and actually mattered. were you his girlfriend?.... uh no, no you weren't. yeah i might have done something mean to him in the past, but really, would you have wanted it to have worked out between me and sean?
SrfBlondie03: no no no im not saying that im just saying that you should of done what you did
BlinkMeTom24: i think you should just stop caring how I treated him... you need to focus on how you treat him ... ok?
SrfBlondie03: i mean im kinda happy this happened because sean learned from it, he learned never to waste his time again with some one as low as you
SrfBlondie03: treat him? umm and you would know how?
BlinkMeTom24: you don't even know me, and the fact that you keep talking shit about me is immature.
SrfBlondie03: im not talking shit
BlinkMeTom24: some one as low as you
SrfBlondie03: ha that didnt even cross my miond
SrfBlondie03: cass im not the only one that thinks this
SrfBlondie03: hey i mean your prob a reall cool chick
SrfBlondie03: butttt
SrfBlondie03: yeah
SrfBlondie03: you did what you did
BlinkMeTom24: so are you on a campaign to bitch out every single person that has ever done anything wrong to sean?
BlinkMeTom24: yeah i know what i did
BlinkMeTom24: i'm not proud of it
SrfBlondie03: noo this no campaing
BlinkMeTom24: but i am happy because of it

here we are, over a year after the fact, and shit like still comes up... cass and i must be a pretty hot topic on the gossip mills...

why this matter to sean's present gf is beyond me but i did get small kick out of it none the less...

but on lighter note i love cassie with inch of my heart and i would go through everything all over again if i had to... because shes worth it.

I LOVE YOU CASSIE!!!!!!!

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[03 Jun 2004|04:08pm]
yeah friends only from now on
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what the hell.. [21 May 2004|01:28am]
[ mood | worried ]

1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. Why are you my friend?
4. When and how did we meet?:
5. How have I affected you in any way?:
6. What do you think of me sexualy?:
7. What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
8. How long do you think we will be friends?:
9. Do you love me?:
10. Do you have a crush on me?:
11. Would you kiss me?:
12. Would you hug me?:
13. Physically, what stands out?:
14. Emotionally, what stands out?:
15. Do you wish I was cooler?:
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
17. Am I loveable?:
18. How long have you known me?:
19. Describe me in one word:
20. What was your first impression?:
21. Do you still think that way about me now?:
22. What do you think my weakness is?:
23. Do you think I'll get married?:
24. What makes me happy?:
25. What makes me sad?:
26. What reminds you of me?:
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
28. How well do you know me?:
29. When's the last time you saw me?:
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
31. Do you think I could kill someone?:
32. Are you going to put this on your Livejournal and see what I say about you?:
33. Who do you think my crush is?

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mwhahaha [16 May 2004|12:24am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

all the straight edgers are falling!!! kinda gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside.

on a side note i love my baby cassie...

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one laaaaaooooonng night... [15 May 2004|10:42am]
[ mood | tired ]

last night was weird... to say the least... went to some kid clay's house for a bit... fuckin rich. 4 comps in his bedroom! afterwards talked to cass on the phone for a a bit then drove around and went home...

waited for cass to call again.. she probably fell asleep.. got called over to matt's casa... where everyone had been drinkin for a while apparently. i won't go into explicit detail... but fucked up shit happens when people are THAT wasted!

now... work time.. be back round 6


cassie i love you so fucking much.

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oh great, here it comes like i predicted [14 May 2004|05:40pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

once again the webs are being spun and the prey is being drawn in... but i've no say in it so other than this my lips are sealed...

oh how quickly people forget when they forgive....

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it was rainy last night huh? [14 May 2004|04:48pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

WOW i slept in till 3 today. it was nice. and my dad came home for lunch and brought me a very yummy breakfast pastry. yay for dads. ANYway.

at work i was the boss all night, well at least upstairs i was. it was fuckin sweeet!

yesterday was crazy.. my g/f was being a badass and confronted some biotch about talkin all this crap... yup thats right she took a page right outta my book! i'm so proud of you baby! after i got off the phone and put my snooks to bed i went over to matt's in the terrential rain... the roads were all floody. we all hung there then picked up our friend mallory..and put her in a better mood then she had been in.

then i got the hiccups... it sucked!

right now i'm not doing much waitin on cass to call and for my mom to bring me pizza hot pockets.. then i will smother them in louisiana hot sauce... (you know you love it).

and OMFG britt brought me the best apple o's in the world... i haven't had these kinds in years... i love you britto

^.^
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cherish your electricity!!! [12 May 2004|01:29pm]
[ mood | happy ]

finally got the electricity on my block back... what ever the fuck chewed through that damn wire... i hope it hurt... bad.

i crashed at matt's last night, we were watching better off dead, ah good movie. i don't know why but last night was fun... like really fun, i was really happy and in an awesome mood.

i think it was cause i got off the phone last night with Cass with the best feeling, i miss her sooo much. we hadn't had a long chat in a while. both of our schedules really collide, but we're both gonna figure out how to better that. welp i'm gonna get some breakfast cause i'm fuckin hungry.

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jamie just did my layout [11 May 2004|04:12am]
[ mood | amused ]

and it is sweeter than uncle jesse.
but not as sweet as george. harrison.

jamie is awesomeCollapse )

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